There's Us

Freewrite 6-18-09

You know it took me 5 months, 2 weeks and 4 days
to get through one whole day, 24 straight hours, and not think about you.
Visions of your walk and smile
The incredibly sexy way you moved and breathed
5 months, 2 weeks and 4 days

I was so disarmed
You might have been the most beautiful thing I've ever seen
and all I could feel was disarmed
Like it was impossible to be smooth with you
Charm you like every other nigga would try
No, I had to be real, myself.
And in that I gave you a power I never intended to let go

3 years, 10 months, and some change I've known you
And somehow your antics are still fresh to me
And you always knew what lines not to cross with me
Like I was different for you
But if you drunk dialed me at 3 A.M. again
I wouldn't mind being woken up.

1 year, 7 months, 12 days it's been since you left
and a friend decides to make me bring you up in conversation
And as he recounts some memories, I can't help but think of you
Where you might be? Doing what?
He says you're probably sleeping at 3 A.M.
but I know better.
No. You're out there somewhere
having fun
not thinking about me.
Damn, I hate this.

It took me 5 months, 2 weeks, and 4 days to get you out of my head.
Only 12 seconds to bring you back.

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Not everything is supposed to come true
Some words are best unsaid
Some love is not really love at all
I'll keep everything I shared with you
And that's enough
There's us